as you can see at the end of my first note i wrote rachel.
i decided it didnt really fit me, i dont know why. so im now emma. i prefer that name.
Tuesday 12 May 2009
Ok so i havent been on in a while
ok so its been what? almost three months since ive been on here and im sorry.
i mean i have actually had alot to do plus it is hard to find internet connection that you can highjack! mcdonalds is quite a good place coz they have free wifi but i normally get kicked out coz i dont eat the food. maybe i should just buy the food and pretend?? me thinks thats a good idea.
well the past three months have been hard let me tell you now!! especially when quite alot of the days have been sunny! i mean whats with the whole omg i cant actually go out in the sun thing otherwise i may like be killed or something! i mean i know its hard to kill us vamps but still!
i mean i had to find out the hard way why i cant go out in the sun. steph meyer was nearly right with the whole sparkeling thing but i dont sparkle i glow! yeh i know! weird huh! its really creepy and i dont like it that much but i guess ill have to deal with it!
anywhos ill write later and more often this time. hopefully
xx
i mean i have actually had alot to do plus it is hard to find internet connection that you can highjack! mcdonalds is quite a good place coz they have free wifi but i normally get kicked out coz i dont eat the food. maybe i should just buy the food and pretend?? me thinks thats a good idea.
well the past three months have been hard let me tell you now!! especially when quite alot of the days have been sunny! i mean whats with the whole omg i cant actually go out in the sun thing otherwise i may like be killed or something! i mean i know its hard to kill us vamps but still!
i mean i had to find out the hard way why i cant go out in the sun. steph meyer was nearly right with the whole sparkeling thing but i dont sparkle i glow! yeh i know! weird huh! its really creepy and i dont like it that much but i guess ill have to deal with it!
anywhos ill write later and more often this time. hopefully
xx
Saturday 21 February 2009
First Light
Well. this whole world is new to me.
I cant remember much about my human life really, i can remember walking home, i think after choir practice? and i can remember walking down a dark alley. i remember this bit clearly enough, there was a man leaning against the wall. quite far away, i felt scared but i carried on walking. he suddenly appeared infront of me, it was scary. he was smileing. i couldnt really see that much, it was dark.
i asked him what he wanted, stupid of me. he just laughed and said i was like everyone else. thats when i tryed to run. he appeared in front of me like lightening. he laughed again and said i smelt delish. i...i had no idea what he meant. he hit me. it felt like i was being hit by a rock, it hurt so much, i couldnt breath, he had obvioulsy broken my ribs. i remember thinking that i was going to die, i wished he would hurry up and stop the pain. i wanted to die. i could see his face get closer to me and i saw him look really...well almost angry. he bent down and...i felt the most painful thing in the world. a slicing pain on my neck. then i could feel burning, an endless burning. it wouldnt stop, i wanted to die. then it ended.
i woke up and everything was so clear, i could hear so much see everything. i had no idea where i was. i was in a forest. i have no idea how i got there. then the fire in my throat hit me, i needed to tame it. you will probably hate me for this but...i killed a human. it tasted so good. but im not going to think about that, that is behind me. im year old now and i can contain my thirst. i hate the thought of hunting a human now, i mean it is tempting but i was a human and i know the feeling of being terrified when someone is hunting you.
this is my blog that i have set up. i am going to write in my experiences so i can try and control myself further, its hard but i think it will help.
oh another thing, i cant remember my last name.
Rachel
I cant remember much about my human life really, i can remember walking home, i think after choir practice? and i can remember walking down a dark alley. i remember this bit clearly enough, there was a man leaning against the wall. quite far away, i felt scared but i carried on walking. he suddenly appeared infront of me, it was scary. he was smileing. i couldnt really see that much, it was dark.
i asked him what he wanted, stupid of me. he just laughed and said i was like everyone else. thats when i tryed to run. he appeared in front of me like lightening. he laughed again and said i smelt delish. i...i had no idea what he meant. he hit me. it felt like i was being hit by a rock, it hurt so much, i couldnt breath, he had obvioulsy broken my ribs. i remember thinking that i was going to die, i wished he would hurry up and stop the pain. i wanted to die. i could see his face get closer to me and i saw him look really...well almost angry. he bent down and...i felt the most painful thing in the world. a slicing pain on my neck. then i could feel burning, an endless burning. it wouldnt stop, i wanted to die. then it ended.
i woke up and everything was so clear, i could hear so much see everything. i had no idea where i was. i was in a forest. i have no idea how i got there. then the fire in my throat hit me, i needed to tame it. you will probably hate me for this but...i killed a human. it tasted so good. but im not going to think about that, that is behind me. im year old now and i can contain my thirst. i hate the thought of hunting a human now, i mean it is tempting but i was a human and i know the feeling of being terrified when someone is hunting you.
this is my blog that i have set up. i am going to write in my experiences so i can try and control myself further, its hard but i think it will help.
oh another thing, i cant remember my last name.
Rachel
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